paper tears

i wish i could cry
but i wish you wouldnt make me want to
i dont know why i cant
it seems like it should come easy
because im hurting
not just from the bruises
but my heart
it hurts and hurts
with every beat
and its agony
because i know that no one can see it
that no one wants to know it
and nothing heals it
everything all trapped inside of me
until i feel so suffocated
in my loneliness
that i just want to be touched
without having to wince
without being afraid that itll leave a bruise
or a scar
but im too afraid to try
to fall into the same nightmare
over and over
somebody save me
crave me
and leave no room for doubt
i just want to be loved...